2005-11-14 01:01:06 UTC
12 November 2005
I completed New OT8 in February 1990 after being in
1973. During that period I was mainly "public" but did several
a staff member in Paris Org as Qual Sec. I trained up to be a
and Confessional auditor and solo auditor. I was a Scientology
celebrity as an international fine artist, creating beautiful
of "visualized" music. Many Scientologists (thousands) knew me
personally from my art tours of orgs and missions in the early
Samples of my art can be seen at
Though you may read about how and why I actually left
the internet (you would probably have to use a
computer, however) and see the data at
www.lermanet.com/michaelpattinson, I wanted to address a
of "Truth Revealed" to you here. After all, that is the very
the OT8 level.
As I read the lists of many Scientology staff names and
recently published on the world wide web (though I don't know
came about) I was filled with compassion at the fact of your
and devotion to Scientology and its basic aims. I was also a
trooper for decades and was utterly convinced that Scientology
really everything I read it was and heard it was. Peer
ARC) was also a strong re-enforcement of my convictions and my
unrelenting in-KSW attitude that I applied very well despite
sometimes coming back at me with counter-emotions and
Like you, I too have made things go right when things looked
bleak. I, too have spent a lot of money on services and
I really could not afford. I have done the "yo-yo" exercise
and applauded and cheered LRH's photo over and over again at
Like you I have also held back the tears of protest and dismay
"handlings" went wrong or were off-target and waited endless
frustrating hours in waiting rooms for folders, C/s"s and D of
interviews. I have, maybe like yourself, had serious doubts as
unexplainable mysterious "outnesses" in the Scientology lines
terminals that seemed to be so quickly smothered, hurried away
blanket-defined as "entheta". I quietly "wondered" (but better
anything) at seeing the sudden painful hostilities towards and
upsetting disappearances of staff members, the sadness of the
the black hole money pit my money got sucked into so fast.
I have also had the personal wins from auditing, feelings of
in the briefings and in courses in LRH tech, admin and ethics
though in retrospect I could wish that they had been as
permanent as my
payments were to purchase them. I have also seen the F/Ns and
from my pc's and (in cramming) auditors from applying tech.
those wins along the way I would never have made it all way up
Bridge to New OT8, as you know. Going OT is an uphill battle
I have been in your position when my own ethics handlings went
well or badly, when conditions were applied both to eventual
to the strained "E.P" of satisfying the fixed ideas of tech
terminals who were aiming at a specific result I had to
attain. I have
done conditions formulas till they were coming out of my ears,
and tons of other ethics, tech and admin applications. I
knew the Flag Class 12 auditors from the Apollo as I trained
at Flag, I have known the Int Execs since they were teenagers,
personally known all LRH's children. I have known and
of the Scientology celebrities too.
I WENT ALL THE WAY UP THE BRIDGE (there is no available level
What happened then is why I am writing this letter. I wish it
necessary to write this but it is. I firmly believe that Truth
friend to, and that lies are an enemy of survival. Yes, feel
investigate what I write about here...
It is truly heartbreaking for me to have to inform you that
been lied to, and not just in a small way. I am so, so sorry
to have to
tell you this, but please bear with me.
You have been lied to regarding the "Bridge to Total Freedom"
does not arrive at Total Freedom. I know this because I have
and experienced it. OT8 is NOT Total Freedom, yet there is no
Bridge to travel.
You may have wondered why OTs still behave in "strange" or
and still exhibit aberrated behaviors. They are on the big
missed withhold of not having received what LRH promised.
"misses" the withhold.
You have been lied to about O.T.powers. I will not go into any
data or OT level data as it is not necessary, but I can tell
the advertised and promised O.T powers LRH writes about such
telekinesis (moving objects as a thetan), perfect total
of any and all aberrations, permanently Cause over Life,
Cause over MEST, etc are NOT in reality delivered by
Scientology (in my
direct experience and in that of many others).
You have been lied to about LRH's death, and the lies were
false. The "story" about LRH deciding to causatively but
depart his body, go off to research further OT levels, etc.
likely a pack of lies. The coroner's report found a
(Vistaril") in LRH's body after death as well as many needle
surrounding circumstances of LRH's death such as a very
changing his Will a day before he died, the hurried cremation,
refusal of autopsy, all make for a very suspicious situation.
been hiding out at the Creston ranch under the false name
Mitchell" so as not to be served with lawsuits, as those who
You have been lied to about LRH's biography, and in many
aspects of it,
not just a few.
Though this may seem to be shocking enough or upsetting
are many other big and awful lies you have been told and false
have been fed. In fact enough false data to fill books which
clarify them. Such books as "A Piece of Blue Sky" by Jon
Faced Messiah by Bent Corydon and L.Ron Hubbard Jr., L.Ron
Hubbard:Messiah or Madman?" are full of truths revealed and
Scientology mysteries unfurled.
The internet is a source for you to explore the truths that
former Scientologists, some from Int Exec strata, have written
Truth, being made of pure Life itself can never be "entheta".
pure theta, even if shocking in its first impact ;like the
that dazzles the eyes of someone emerging from a deep and dark
having followed a closely taped path to nowhere but blind
But why, you may ask, not let us down slowly? Well, we who
were not let down slowly and we survived the truth and its
re-orientations. So can you.
I invite you to explore the internet and finding your own
truths. I ask that you open your eyes and see for yourself. I
you to see both sides of the Scientology coin.
and other linked sites.
BEWARE of those who say "Do NOT look!" or try to label the
truth or me,
or other brave ex-members who have the integrity to seak out
personal dangers as "entheta" or SP's. To my knowledge I have
declared SP, and have even asked Scientolgy terminals if there
a "declare" on several occasions to no avail, so I would
welcome you to
be in communication with me.
I am proud to have been a companion of many, many
the way and I am equally proud of those who have had the guts
out publicly. I regret the lies we were told and the fraud
advantage of our trusting good nature. I believe they must be
exposed and dealt with appropriately.
In closing, I salute your positive goals, your will to
bravery in facing new viewpoints and especially the divine
within you that is immortal, beautiful and full of the Light
shines as bright as the Sun. This inner Light is your real
mpattinson AT gmail DOT com
An was an OT 8, previously on staff, world famous in his own
right, speaking up. Those still on Hubbards fraudulent pier
to insanity would do well to read other sources. Lately
Muldoon posting this news group is providing some world class
insight on how this disaster was structured.